Oofah.
Well, let's see here. How is a good way to start this? (Don't worry, this journal entry should be a positive one :] Sorta.)
To start, I didn't have any idea on how I would be after I realized I wasn't traumatized from a certain event... quite frankly, I was scared because it seemed like I had lived as a traumatized individual for SO LONG and I didn't know any other way to live. Pff, yeah, pathetic. XD Really I had only had the symptoms for a little over a year.
I think the reason why I felt like I wouldn't be able to be "me" without being traumatized by SOMETHING is because I was still undergoing the aftereffects of, to be blunt, em